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Post by mosheli on Aug 1, 2020 17:28:46 GMT -8
I find it very hard to love God and to have faith that he will answer prayers and fix the really bad things. Some of the major big reasons I have been finding it hard to love and have faith include: How can I love him and have faith
- When he keeps allowing me to suffer the ringing sound from the neighbours heat pump which goes all day and night every day and night for over 3 years now and is impossible to block out of ears with plugs because the type of sound it is it penetrates regardless. (No it is definitely real external sound not tinnitis or hallucination.)
- When he keeps allowing me (and others) to be forced to eat and drink fluoridated water (and food) every mouthful every meal every day for years with me suffering the brain and body ability and health harms and hinderances all day every day. Not only has he not answered my appeals but he allowed them to do the exact opposite and this countries goverment is one of the only countries governments in the world to be pushing mandatory fluoridation even more and more in the last couple of years and present. (No it is not so simple and easy to "get a water filter" as people believe.) (Also when he allows them to spray fruit and vegetables.)
- When he allows me to have been made now 47 and still always been single (and also some other christian men I know are also old and single). (While he gave Abraham 3 wives, Jacob 4, David 12, Solomon 600, Ahasuerus 2 (and a harem full), Derek Prince 2 or more, etc.)
- When my historical discoveries all keep getting unfairly/dishonestly denied by "experts" and everyone else no matter how much hard work I put in. That they keep power by using such unfair/untrue cunning "clever" tactics. And when he for so long keeps allowing them to get away with lies that the bible history is not true, and he never defends his own bible.
- When he allowed me to get put under the mental health act compulsory treatment order and has allowed them to keep me under it for over a year now and allowed them to apply for indefinite period with the psychiatrist having written outright lies in the court report.
- When many other christians i have seen/heard are also suffering things (though alot of them not as bad things as me), while the evil elite keep getting away when doing evil things. When no christians like disabled or sick with things like cancer are healed. My mother is a believer yet she got lung cancer and then brain cancer etc.
- When I am stuck trapped in a bad accomodation situation not being able to find a place to shift to because of the "housing crisis" and because prices and rents are too excessively expensive.
- When I have forever lost so much: I lost 15 years studies notes in a crisis a number of years ago, and it is impossible to ever recover anymuch of what I lost. Being 47 and always-been-single I've forver missed out on young love (20s & 30s) (unless there is marriage in the millenium? But we don't know that for sure and he says the resurrected are like the angels and don't marry?)
Quite a few more troubles reasons too.
I know that some people in world & history have suffered some worse things (though not many in the bible seem to have), and that things could be even worse, but things are or have been pretty hell bad enough.
What James says in James 1 about we can't expect anything from God if we don't have faith without wavering always bothers me and I always keep feeling/wonderin if that is the reason why he hasn't answered for so long and seems as if he may never answer.
I guess people won't be able to help much, and I know me posting this probably won't help. But maybe someone might know something that could help abit or maybe my own difficulty will help someone else. I have tried reading bible and praying etc but seems not much use if can't have faith and control mouth. Sometimes people make me feel as if it is my fault for supposedly not doing things but I can't see there is very much I can do in my difficult situation.
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Post by alon on Aug 1, 2020 19:38:17 GMT -8
I find it very hard to love God and to have faith that he will answer prayers and fix the really bad things. Some of the major big reasons I have been finding it hard to love and have faith include: How can I love him and have faith - Sometimes the answer is no, and He has his reasons. But does your faith depend on God doing favors for you? It is witchcraft that seeks to control their gods (an illusion at best) to get what they want. Even Rav Shaul had a "thorn" in his side he could not get rid of.
- When he keeps allowing me to suffer the ringing sound from the neighbours heat pump which goes all day and night every day and night for over 3 years now and is impossible to block out of ears with plugs because the type of sound it is it penetrates regardless. (No it is definitely real external sound not tinnitis or hallucination.) - Neighbors, the bane of urban living, and and too often truly a thorn in our side. Not sure what to tell you about that. - When he keeps allowing me (and others) to be forced to eat and drink fluoridated water (and food) every mouthful every meal every day for years with me suffering the brain and body ability and health harms and hinderances all day every day. Not only has he not answered my appeals but he allowed them to do the exact opposite and this countries goverment is one of the only countries governments in the world to be pushing mandatory fluoridation even more and more in the last couple of years and present. (No it is not so simple and easy to "get a water filter" as people believe.) (Also when he allows them to spray fruit and vegetables.) - When he allows me to have been made now 47 and still always been single (and also some other christian men I know are also old and single). (While he gave Abraham 3 wives, Jacob 4, David 12, Solomon 600, Ahasuerus 2 (and a harem full), Derek Prince 2 or more, etc.) - When he allowed me to get put under the mental health act compulsory treatment order and has allowed them to keep me under it for over a year now and allowed them to apply for indefinite period with the psychiatrist having written outright lies in the court report. - When I am stuck trapped in a bad accomodation situation not being able to find a place to shift to because of the "housing crisis" and because prices and rents are too excessively expensive. - These are problems that are manifest in a fallen world. It is we (the community of believers as a whole) who have sat idly by and allowed evil to gain more control every year. And we are reaping the results. - When my historical discoveries all keep getting unfairly/dishonestly denied by "experts" and everyone else no matter how much hard work I put in. That they keep power by using such unfair/untrue cunning "clever" tactics. And when he for so long keeps allowing them to get away with lies that the bible history is not true, and he never defends his own bible. - That is just how academia works, and you should have known this going in. I'm not a great fan of academia, so I should probaly just let that be it or I'll go on a rant, which nobody wants ... - When many other christians i have seen/heard are also suffering things (though alot of them not as bad things as me), while the evil elite keep getting away when doing evil things. When no christians like disabled or sick with things like cancer are healed. My mother is a believer yet she got lung cancer and then brain cancer etc. - Sometime I will tell you just a little of my situation. It'll make you thankful, trust me. But I know God has His reasons for not healing us. Honestly (and this is pure conjecture, but hope springs and all that), but I think as we go into the end times many believers who are in dire straights medically will be miraculously healed all at once! I know, but hope ... what can I say. My point is God has His reasons, and our witness may well be we do not renounce Him in spite of these problems. Whatever is the case, I always pray I will have the courage to face whatever comes next. - When I have forever lost so much: I lost 15 years studies notes in a crisis a number of years ago, and it is impossible to ever recover anymuch of what I lost. Being 47 and always-been-single I've forver missed out on young love (20s & 30s) (unless there is marriage in the millenium? But we don't know that for sure and he says the resurrected are like the angels and don't marry?) As I read it no, we will not marry, but those we govern will. And I too lost severl years of notes in a computer crash a few years ago. I'll never get most of that back. But I did get a Mac after that. I got the best of that deal after all!
What James says in James 1 about we can't expect anything from God if we don't have faith without wavering always bothers me and I always keep feeling/wonderin if that is the reason why he hasn't answered for so long and seems as if he may never answer. - Or maybe He has something in store for you and wants to develop your faith even more!
I guess people won't be able to help much, and I know me posting this probably won't help. But maybe someone might know something that could help abit or maybe my own difficulty will help someone else. I have tried reading bible and praying etc but seems not much use if can't have faith and control mouth. Sometimes people make me feel as if it is my fault for supposedly not doing things but I can't see there is very much I can do in my difficult situation. - Sometimes we just need to vent our frustrations. I usually end up cussin' a blue streak (old habits being hard to break and all). But this is probably a much better alternative. So no problem.
Dan (a work in progress) C
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Post by jimmie on Aug 4, 2020 6:13:30 GMT -8
1 Corinthians 10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
Hebrews 2:18 For in that he himself hath suffered being tempted, he is able to succour them that are tempted.
Hebrews 4:15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.
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Post by mosheli on Aug 22, 2020 1:47:52 GMT -8
I'm in an impossible to get out hell situation and the only hope is that God will answer and send help to get out. There is no other hope, I can't do much in my situation, and no one else is willing or able to help (and people don't even care about things like fluoridation, they agree with the elite). The evil elite doing bad things to me like fluoridation are not going to stop or help. The devil is not going to stop hurting me. So God is the only hope. But it means I have to have faith without wavering or I can't expect anything from God (so James 1 says and so my experience of the last many years seems to evidence). It is extremely hard to have faith when suffering mean cruel hell things daily but I have no other choice. I don't love God for being so mean and cruel but I have to have faith or I am doomed to continued mean cruel hell suffering for "life". Things are already hell bad enough (all alone, no family, no wife, no children, no love, no friends, no own home except a bad flat, no mental health allegedly, no car, no job, bad location, no clean (unfluoridated) water, not able to get out much, lack of exercise, lack of sunlight, etc and the elite world is against me and only going to get worse. There is no other hope except possibly medication which is not a great answer as it has bad problems. (I have already been under the mental health act compulsory community treatment for over a year now and they have not helped only made things harder. Medication is their only answer to everything. It is not my mental it is the situation and world cultural/social/economic/etc system. Eg housing crisis here makes hard to shift.) So if anyone can spare any prayers once or more maybe it will help. Please don't call the mental health on me. Please don't punish me God for crying out to people, I am trying to have faith but you can't expect me to be perfect when suffering such hell. ------------------- P.s. While I have been stuck in this hell I haven't been idle. This last month I've written these bible history articles. Zerah the Ethiopian iwillnotbeassimilated.blogspot.com/2018/09/zerah-ethiopian.htmlbiblehistory.createaforum.com/divided-monarchy/who-is-zerah-the-cushite/groups.io/g/NewChronology/topic/who_is_zerah_the_cushite/76183292?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,76183292 Shishak Sheshonk or Ramses 2? earlywritings.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=7132biblehistory.createaforum.com/divided-monarchy/shishak-sheshonk-or-ramses-2/Could Sisera possibly match Seqenenre? iwillnotbeassimilated.blogspot.com/2019/01/sisera.htmltheloveofgod.proboards.com/thread/4499/sisera?page=2groups.io/g/AncientBibleHistory/topic/sisera_seqenenre/76081018?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,76081018 www.allempires.com/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=37570&PID=722805#722805Who was Cushanrishathaim? earlywritings.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=7105biblehistory.createaforum.com/judges/chushan-rishthaim-as-chammu-rabi/groups.io/g/NewChronology/topic/chushan_rishthaim_as/75960537?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,75960537 Red Sea crossing at Aqaba evidences biblehistory.createaforum.com/exodus/red-sea-crossing/Evidences for Moses found in Egypt iwillnotbeassimilated.blogspot.com/p/evidences-for-moses-found-in-egypt.htmlWhy Goshen, Pithom & Raamses can't be in the northeast Nile delta, & List of Goshen candidates biblehistory.createaforum.com/exodus/pithom-raamses/www.worldhistoria.com/goshen-is-not-the-northeast-delta_topic129965.html#108864groups.io/g/AncientBibleHistory/topic/goshen_is_not_fakus_rohl/76045962?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,76045962 earlywritings.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=7115215 or 430 years in Egypt? earlywritings.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=7085theloveofgod.proboards.com/thread/4907/430-215-years-egyptbiblehistory.createaforum.com/biblical-chronology/430-or-215-years-in-egypt/Joseph in the 3rd-4th dynasties evidences iwillnotbeassimilated.blogspot.com/p/joseph-in-3rd-4th-dynasty-evidences.htmlMatches of Joseph with Sekhemhet of the 3rd dynasty theloveofgod.proboards.com/thread/4913/joseph-egyptwww.christianforums.com/threads/joseph-found-in-egyptian-history.8172012/biblehistory.createaforum.com/joseph-in-egypt/looking-for-the-person-zaphenath-paneah-in-egyptian-history/Jacob = Khufu/Cheops biblehistory.createaforum.com/joseph-in-egypt/jacob-khufucheops/groups.io/g/AncientBibleHistory/topic/khufu_and_jacob_match/75782254?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,75782254 www.worldhistoria.com/pharaoh-king-khufu-reign_topic129942.html (2nd post). iwillnotbeassimilated.blogspot.com/2019/06/jacob-khufu-part-2.htmlAbraham and Chedorlaomer candidate matches lists biblehistory.createaforum.com/abraham/finding-chedorlaomer-amraphel/groups.io/g/NewChronology/topic/abraham_during_ur_iii_and/74784010?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,74784010 (post 33047). Geological timescale vs bible www.allempires.com/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=37877biblehistory.createaforum.com/evolution-geological-time-scale/geological-time-scale/Where was Eden biblehistory.createaforum.com/creation-preflood-world/where-iswas-eden/msg21/Conventional Egyptian chronology dating methods unreliable biblehistory.createaforum.com/biblical-chronology/egyptian-chronology/Tables of the main Egyptian-Biblical chronologies biblehistory.createaforum.com/biblical-chronology/egyptian-chronology/ (2nd post). groups.io/g/AncientBibleHistory/topic/chronologies_summaries_tables/76121848?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,76121848 groups.io/g/NewChronology/topic/chronologies_summaries_tables/76121803?p=,,,20,0,0,0::recentpostdate%2Fsticky,,,20,2,0,76121803 Who is the harlot Babylon? biblehistory.createaforum.com/present-future-in-prophecy/who-is-the-harlot-babylon-of-revelation/msg30/#newDoes popes list match emperors list earlywritings.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=7123biblehistory.createaforum.com/history-between-acts-and-now/popes-list/www.allempires.com/forum/ebook_view.asp?BookID=104 |
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Post by mystic on Aug 22, 2020 4:26:48 GMT -8
I am only now seeing this thread and I am so very sorry for your situation but I hear you loud and clear brother as I too still struggle with this.
Whenever things come to a head the frustrations and doubts come at me with a vengeance. So I throw my tantrums, express my disappointments, anger and doubts to God to get it out of my system [vent] then I ask forgiveness and regroup. This has been a pattern for me.
The main thing which keeps me going not having some of my requests granted after all of these years with everyday praying [or rather more like begging] is I always try to focus on the many and most important times in life when he had come through for me and that's all I can advise.
I will say a prayer over this for you, many blessings!
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Post by alon on Aug 22, 2020 4:57:11 GMT -8
I'm in an impossible to get out hell situation and the only hope is that God will answer and send help to get out. There is no other hope, I can't do much in my situation, and no one else is willing or able to help (and people don't even care about things like fluoridation, they agree with the elite). I have long been an opponent of fluoridation of our water supplies. So I know what you mean. Unfortunately t is just something we have to deal with.
I have also cried out to God for my medical problems, and the answer thus far has been just enough to get by. But it seems for every solution there are a half dozen problems cropping up, and every time I learn to cope with one problem another presents itself. And it’s getting old. But my faith is in God that in the end, I’ll win as long as I’m with Him.But it means I have to have faith without wavering or I can't expect anything from God (so James 1 says and so my experience of the last many years seems to evidence). I don’t think God expects our faith will never waiver, just that we don’t give up; that when it does we get over it and are sill with Him when it’s said and done.It is extremely hard to have faith when suffering mean cruel hell things daily but I have no other choice. I don't love God for being so mean and cruel but I have to have faith or I am doomed to continued mean cruel hell suffering for "life". I don’t know what your destiny is, or mine. All I know is it is worse without God than it is with Him. Things are already hell bad enough (all alone, no family, no wife, no children, no love, no friends, no own home except a bad flat, no mental health allegedly, no car, no job, bad location, no clean (unfluoridated) water, not able to get out much, lack of exercise, lack of sunlight, etc Well, those are specific things we can intercede on your behalf for. and the elite world is against me and only going to get worse. That has always been, and will be until the end of the age.There is no other hope except possibly medication which is not a great answer as it has bad problems. (I have already been under the mental health act compulsory community treatment for over a year now and they have not helped only made things harder. Medication is their only answer to everything. By medication I take it you mean anti-depressants. That seems to be their answer for everything these days. I told one doc I didn’t come in to feel better about my problems, I came to see about getting them fixed! Finally I was talking to a Nurse Practitioner in mental health, and he ran some tests and found out that I have a congenital condition where antidepressants do me no good, and can be dangerous- EXACTLY what I had been telling the sorry doctors for years! See if they can test you. At least if you have something like it the diagnoses would get them off your back.
It is not my mental it is the situation and world cultural/social/economic/etc system. Eg housing crisis here makes hard to shift.) Those problems are everywhere, and I still advocate direct action to mitigate them when we can. But I am afraid things will get worse long before they get better. So the problem then becomes how do we cope? Worrying endlessly over things we cannot control does no good. So I have learned I can still advocate for change without stressing that the change isn’t happening.
So if anyone can spare any prayers once or more maybe it will help. Yes, we can pray for you, certainly.Please don't call the mental health on me. Please don't punish me God for crying out to people, We don’t call anyone like that. I suppose if someone convinced me they were planning to detonate a bomb in a crowded market I would call the police, but not mental health. That’s all between you and them. I would say they are not all bad (my experience anyhow), so if you get a good doctor/counselor/caregiver try working with them. And for some people antidepressants do work, so don’t just assume you have a condition like mine. You will know when something works for your body and when it doesn’t. But you’ll only know that if you try.
From the looks of those papers you’ve written, you are accomplishing something. I’ll try to look at some of them later when I can. Meanwhile, I have some idea of what you are going through, so I will pray for you.
Dan C
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Post by mystic on Aug 22, 2020 6:54:35 GMT -8
I'm in an impossible to get out hell situation and the only hope is that God will answer and send help to get out. There is no other hope, I can't do much in my situation, and no one else is willing or able to help (and people don't even care about things like fluoridation, they agree with the elite). The evil elite doing bad things to me like fluoridation are not going to stop or help. The devil is not going to stop hurting me. So God is the only hope. But it means I have to have faith without wavering or I can't expect anything from God (so James 1 says and so my experience of the last many years seems to evidence). It is extremely hard to have faith when suffering mean cruel hell things daily but I have no other choice. I don't love God for being so mean and cruel but I have to have faith or I am doomed to continued mean cruel hell suffering for "life". Things are already hell bad enough (all alone, no family, no wife, no children, no love, no friends, no own home except a bad flat, no mental health allegedly, no car, no job, bad location, no clean (unfluoridated) water, not able to get out much, lack of exercise, lack of sunlight, etc and the elite world is against me and only going to get worse. There is no other hope except possibly medication which is not a great answer as it has bad problems. (I have already been under the mental health act compulsory community treatment for over a year now and they have not helped only made things harder. Medication is their only answer to everything. It is not my mental it is the situation and world cultural/social/economic/etc system. Eg housing crisis here makes hard to shift.) So if anyone can spare any prayers once or more maybe it will help. Please don't call the mental health on me. Please don't punish me God for crying out to people, I am trying to have faith but you can't expect me to be perfect when suffering such hell. ------------------- Maybe I might be able to offer some advice especially on the Mental health aspect Moshelli. I have been running a Special Needs Private Support Group on Facebook for some years now with close to 1k "selected" members. I also participate in an Adult Mental health Support forum. Both forums are for Caregivers like myself as I have an Autistic 21 year old son but I can get you into the Adult group where you might be able to get help with services, advice and other support options from the Parents on there as I have. If interested you can pm me. My experience in having dealt with both aspects [Mental Health and Prayer] over the years had led me to believe we need BOTH physical help and Prayer help. In most cases one needs to keep trying different meds to find the one which will work for him/her, that is the name of the game where meds and therapy is concerned, there is no one size fits all unfortunately. It's like taking a pill for a headache, Advil works for some people while Tylenol or Excedrin will work for others but that is "if" you do need meds at all. Regarding Prayer, there are many testimonies where people have gotten help from seeking God. I am living proof of it. There were many times around 6 years ago when I have had to use Prayers to reach into the jaws of hell and snatch my son back from the devil when Mike was going through his Psychotic and suicide episodes with Mental Hospitalizations in the mix. After a certain period of time when all of the different meds and therapies was not working, one day being at the end of my rope, I walked out of LIJ hospital here in NY in utter desperation and hopelessness and looked up at the sky. I was an empty shell of a person with no feeling at all but these words just came out of me, it was nothing planned, it just happened, I said "God, if you will give me back my son I will devote the rest of my life to you". That was all I had said, no other prayers, those words came from inside my soul. I then walked back into the hospital to be with my son and then only a couple days later, I started noticing the first change in him and from then on the rest as they say is history. I still have had some very important life threatening and life changing events happen since that time but God has come through for me every time and THAT is what I lean on. So I haven't gotten the help I have been asking for since some years now for certain things but I would very gladly take this help any day. I think you might try what has been working for me with my son. I split up my son's needs and laser focus on each need individually and put a lot of prayer into each need one at a time, this system has been working for us. Now to address the issue of why has God been helping me with my son and not helping me with my own personal requests which I have been begging for all of these recent years? Only he knows. As Dan knows, I had stated here a while back that God seems to help me with some of my needs only whenever I hit rock bottom and my prayers come out of sheer desperation and hopelessness and I get upset at him for that whenever that happens but.......... So the bottom line for me is, do I give up asking/begging or do I have faith and continue with it until one day he might just grant me my requests? I choose the latter. |
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Post by mosheli on Aug 22, 2020 22:25:28 GMT -8
Thank-you Alon and Mystic.
I'll keep trying to hang on having faith and praying.
Its not easy for me to work with the mental health people especially under compulsion, the only thing they might be able to help with medication-wise is OCD. Though I find it odd going to the very people who push fluoridation for help.
Yes Mystic the support group/forum might be helpful if you want to pm me how to join.
Its pretty hard what yous have gone through through too.
Any prayers would be helpful though I'm not sure what specific things. The worst trouble of all I have is not being able to get out much because of problems with this flat being so cold all the time and problems here with facilities for washing self & clothes. And the power wiring needs to be checked too. But these things are not easy to fix with OCD. Though there are also other big problems too. If anyone can pray for God to help me maybe I could pray for you too.
It is a pity that there is not much of a local loving church community to help each other.
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Post by alon on Aug 22, 2020 22:39:44 GMT -8
Moderator Note: Unfortunately we had to disable the PM's because we had one group in particular that was using that function to siphon new believers away from us into their own heretical teachings. There probably were others, but these guys were pretty aggressive. We weren't monitoring PM's, but they were reported. I am sure of a couple of members they got to. So staff are the only people you can PM here now.
However if mystic wants to PM me the info, I will pass it on to you. Sorry for the inconvenience.
Dan
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Post by mystic on Aug 24, 2020 3:04:05 GMT -8
Sorry for the late response guys. The AANE Group is by invitation only so I would need your email address Moshelli in order to send the invite. So you if you can send it to Dan then I will do.
I will bring your situation to my prayer group today.
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Post by mosheli on Aug 24, 2020 23:21:14 GMT -8
Ok thanks Mystic, I'll email Dan since I have his email address from enquiring about this forum a couple of years ago. I saw the Dr today and they agreed that my flat situation is difficult. A friend I emailed sent me this link worldchallenge.org/newsletter/snare-broken and even though what it talks about is different to my situation I got from it that I need to hang on having faith that God will send an answer. |
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Post by garrett on Aug 25, 2020 1:51:44 GMT -8
Ok thanks Mystic, I'll email Dan since I have his email address from enquiring about this forum a couple of years ago. I saw the Dr today and they agreed that my flat situation is difficult. A friend I emailed sent me this link worldchallenge.org/newsletter/snare-broken and even though what it talks about is different to my situation I got from it that I need to hang on having faith that God will send an answer. mosheli, I will also keep you in my prayers. Try to come to terms with your very bad circumstances and humble yourself before G-d, showing sincere gratitude for every single good thing He has given - even the very smallest of things. I've had to do this many times in my life, even recently. G-d loves a humble and grateful heart and He truly loves you. We were guaranteed hardship, unfortunately, but we are also guaranteed His love. Stand up straight and walk in that. May G-d bless you and keep you - garrett |
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Post by mosheli on Aug 25, 2020 23:17:31 GMT -8
Thankyou Garrett. I will try to do that (humble self and have gratitude) as well as having faith. I've felt a little bit better yesterday and today though situation still the same. May He bless and keep you & Alon/Dan & Mystic too.
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Post by mosheli on Nov 23, 2020 20:40:00 GMT -8
Sorry but here I go again because things haven't got any better despite my other posts.
I urgently need to find out why God is seemingly not ever answering my prayers for so very long. I know you don't know me so it may not be easy to find/know why but I don't know what else to do since nothing else is working.
- God won't stop me being fluoridated every meal every day. (I tried again to buy a filter but found out it was bad when got it.)
- God won't stop the neighbours heat pump ringing sound in my flat. (Everyone I try to ask to help solve it refuses and instead I wrongly got put under the mental health act.)
- God won't stop me still being under force under the mental health act.
- God won't stop me being stuck in this flat not able to shift because of housing crisis and excessive prices/rents.
- God won't stop me always never getting any positive for my hard work studies discoveries and info/ideas. (Don't mean pride or mammon but just it being worth it and some positive.)
- God won't stop me suffering OCD trouble.
(There is no answer except medication or EMDR which have problems.)
- God won't stop me always being stopped from being able to do my good paper studies because of constant miserable troubles.
- God won't stop me being in 40s and still always been single and alone.
- God won't even stop me having problems with having faith and keeping my mouth shut.
- God won't help me find or found a (local offline/online) (christian/messianic) group or friends where I fit in and am an equal valued part. Instead everyone I try I don't fit in.
None of these things is "asking amiss" for my "own fleshly desires". They are serious life needs. Yes everyone have problems but here where I am I don't see/hear many suffering as bad as what I have been.
I can't ever seem to find out why God is never answering my prayers and what to do to get him to answer. The only thing I could think of is James 1 says one can' expect aything from God if they can't have faith without wavering and also keep mouth from negative words. But I've tried and its impossible tohave faith for so long when suffering such constant hell problems (and no positives)?
The only other thing I thought is I know its grace not works but even me begging for mercy/grace doesn't work. Then i get the thoughts faith without works is dead, and then I get confused about whether its too much works and too little grace or too little works and too much grace.
I need prayers if anyone can pray, though I know we can't pray for everyone we see and hear.
For awhile I did better at knowing I have no other hope/choice but to have to have faith and andkeep mouth shut and surely God will have to answer then because no fault and because these things are injust mean cruel wrongs and he has to do something about them. But things just keep not changing and things keep going wrong and I just can't have faith and keep my mouth shut.
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Post by alon on Nov 23, 2020 22:42:55 GMT -8
I urgently need to find out why God is seemingly not ever answering my prayers for so very long. I know you don't know me so it may not be easy to find/know why but I don't know what else to do since nothing else is working. - God won't stop me being fluoridated every meal every day. (I tried again to buy a filter but found out it was bad when got it.) - God won't stop the neighbours heat pump ringing sound in my flat. (Everyone I try to ask to help solve it refuses and instead I wrongly got put under the mental health act.) - God won't stop me still being under force under the mental health act. - God won't stop me being stuck in this flat not able to shift because of housing crisis and excessive prices/rents. - God won't stop me always never getting any positive for my hard work studies discoveries and info/ideas. (Don't mean pride or mammon but just it being worth it and some positive.) - God won't stop me suffering OCD trouble. (There is no answer except medication or EMDR which have problems.) - God won't stop me always being stopped from being able to do my good paper studies because of constant miserable troubles. - God won't stop me being in 40s and still always been single and alone. - God won't even stop me having problems with having faith and keeping my mouth shut. - God won't help me find or found a (local offline/online) (christian/messianic) group or friends where I fit in and am an equal valued part. Instead everyone I try I don't fit in. None of these things is "asking amiss" for my "own fleshly desires". They are serious life needs. Yes everyone have problems but here where I am I don't see/hear many suffering as bad as what I have been. I can't ever seem to find out why God is never answering my prayers and what to do to get him to answer. The only thing I could think of is James 1 says one can' expect aything from God if they can't have faith without wavering and also keep mouth from negative words. But I've tried and its impossible tohave faith for so long when suffering such constant hell problems (and no positives)? The only other thing I thought is I know its grace not works but even me begging for mercy/grace doesn't work. Then i get the thoughts faith without works is dead, and then I get confused about whether its too much works and too little grace or too little works and too much grace. I need prayers if anyone can pray, though I know we can't pray for everyone we see and hear. For awhile I did better at knowing I have no other hope/choice but to have to have faith and andkeep mouth shut and surely God will have to answer then because no fault and because these things are injust mean cruel wrongs and he has to do something about them. But things just keep not changing and things keep going wrong and I just can't have faith and keep my mouth shut.
He allowed God to turn it into strength, the kind of strength the world can never understand. A strength that keeps us praising God even in our infirmity. That unfortunately (and I won't pretend it doesn't just suck) is our lot. But it is his glory. And in the end our benefit. Think of it: one day we'll be able to look Job in the eye and say "I think I understand now." Few will have that privilege. Yeah, I'd rather understand the kings- hunting deer, commanding armies, doing guy stuff all day then coming home to my wives (pl), counting my wealth. But that is not what I was called to. I was called to hurt, in part so I could answer questions like yours. So there it is.
Of course I will pray for you, that you'll find your answers. And if it's His will that He'll heal you. But sometimes you have to look for the little things- like it's been months, maybe over a year since I missed my pills. That used to happen all too often (me being in a fog and all), but it's been a while. When I do, I know it. I take them late because of the burning getting bad, but even so it takes 3 days for them to level out in my system so the pain is tolerable. So that is a huge blessing right there. Start looking for the small mercies, and grow from there.
I sincerely hope this helps. I can't really relate to your actual problems, but I can understand how devastating those kinds of problems can be. But hang in there, because going through them without God will take you to a dark place you do not want to experience, trust me. I went there, so I know. Hold on and trust God, no matter what.
It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22-23)Dan C
Edit: LOL, corrected one of those embarrassing mistakes I was talking about. I meant Job, was thinking Job ... and wrote Lot! I don't know ... sometimes! |
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