Newbie Here

[USAgirlUK]

Hello Everyone

This is my first time here. I guess I should start by telling you all something about myself. I'm female, 36, married and I have a daughter & 2 cats (both weirdos!) I'm originally from South Carolina - but have been in England @ 10 years now.

I was raised a Southern Baptist (by my mother) and my father was Presbeterian. They divorced when I was 4 so every other weekend I was at my dads, which meant that I attended Presbeterian services as well.

My mother remarried a man from Haifa, Israel - he was Jewish. So Christmas came to an end. It seems like he was there 5 minutes and it ALL changed!
I was then in my rebellious teenage years so I decided that they were all wrong and that I didnt need religion at all. I moved out - and did all the things that I was told not to. Luckily I've never been arrested or on drugs - that in it'self is a miracle!

When my 1st husband David died (37) I was so angry. I lost my mind, I became a hermit, went to mediums etc... My daughter was 5 at the time. She now refuses to go to church - she says that there is no god.
A few weeks ago I woke up, nothing on my mind really but I felt so . I felt like something pulling at me telling me that I should get my life right again and that I should save my daughter. I am still feeling it - I know that I need to before its too late. Even though my life is ok at the moment - there is still an emptiness.

My mother attends a Messianic Service in South Carolina -a year or so ago she sent me a book and I had a quick flip through it. Ive been reading up on it and I believe that this is better suited for me. I have been searching for years for something . To me this is the way it was meant to be - it just feels natural. Hope I've not bored you all to tears

[Nachshon]

lol. You have certainly not bored us to tears. We're glad to have you. Welcome to the family.

Shalom,
Nachshon

[Mark]

Welcome to Ahavat Elohim!

First, I've never been there so all I know are the sterio-types; but... where in England is it sunny?! Part of my question is because the Messianic perspective is not an American anomoli
and there are definitely pro- Messianic groups in your area that may be able to encourage you and help re-establish your relationship with your daughter in Messiah.

Your daughter is a teen-ager now? It's an interesting period of life: testing boundaries, questioning realities and the validity of the status quo. While it would be nice if your daughter believes everything you say and follows your advice. It will be make her much stronger to question and eventually own the truth of God for herself. Pray to that end. Make truth available to her and always show compassion and understanding (knowing from your own experiences exactly what she is going through). I cannot over emphasize the value of prayer and the need for you to find and walk in intimacy with God for yourself. There is a peace that passes all understanding in walking hand-in-hand with the Messiah.

We appreciate your coming into this forum and making us a part of your life. You and your family are in my prayers. Has your step-father found Messiah or, from the lack of his mention, is your mother agains divorced?

Mark

[USAgirlUK]

nachshon said:

lol. You have certainly not bored us to tears. We're glad to have you. Welcome to the family.

Shalom,
Nachshon

Thank You

[USAgirlUK]

Hi Mark

Im in Cambridgeshire -in a little village about 20 miles north of Mildenhall/Lakenheath (the American base thats had so much publicity over the transporting of terror suspects etc) It is absolutely roasting here today -well all week. In the 80's- 90's Id say.
My daughter is 11 now but it seems these days children are 'new & improved' - well, maybe not improved

She is very good I have to say, so far I've not had any problems. She is very respectful and knows that in my house it's my rules. It's her soul that I am worried about.

I've looked all over the internet and emailed a couple of messianic congregations asking if they knew of any closer to me (the 2 in particular are 80+ miles away) Unfortunately, Ive not had a response. If you know of any that would be fantastic!

You asked about my step father - well that's a long story but basically when his green card appeared he disappeared - he has resurfaced (20) yrs later like nothing has happened ~ very odd, asking my mother to forgive him. She refused. Main reason - he disappeared a few weeks after their son Raviv - my only baby brother died. To the best of my knowledge he's not found the messiah. Thank you all for your kind words and welcome.... I am really glad that I found this site.

[Chaviva7]

Shalom USAgirl & everyone

First before going further I'd like to also introduce myself. I am 52 years old wife to a very honest, hard working, and caring husband of 24 years as of this year living in Richmond Texas (Just west of Houston) and no children, and one dog. I've only understood who I am regarding obedience to following the ways of i.e. festivals, and sabbaths just about 4 years now maybe closer to 5. I've discovered that this path isnt a easy one but seen many blessings and changes come about by understanding what it means to be obedient by faith.

Anyway - I wanted to say to USAgirl that I appreciate her sharing and hope she finds a place here to learn and ask the questions that come up. This journey we are on USAgirl is one where you'll discover truths you've never seen or heard mentioned in a church. For myself I dont really know much but have found since returning back to the L-rd prior to beginning a life that studying and examing scripture has helped my daily Halachah (walk) to deepen with HaShem. Not that its been a bed of roses mind you, because I've gotten a few bruises to show for the hard knocks along the way. Like what Hebrews 12:11 says about "yielding peaceable fruits of righteousness."

May Abba bless
Chaviva

[R' Y'hoshua Moshe]

Shalom and welcome USAgirlUK

Thank you for sharing about yourself. We are all seeking the restoration and shalom of Adonai.

"The of The Eternal One is perfect, restoring the inner person. The instruction of The Eternal One is sure, making wise the thoughtless. The precepts of The Eternal One are right, rejoicing the heart. The mitzvah of The Eternal One is pure, enlightening the eyes. The fear of The Eternal One is clean, enduring forever. The rulings of The Eternal One are true, they are righteous altogether, more desirable than gold, than much fine gold, also sweeter than honey or drippings from the honeycomb. Through them your servant is warned; in obeying them there is great reward."
- Tehillim (Psalms) 19:7-11

May you and your family experience the restoration of the inner person. May your heart be rejoiced. May your eyes continue to be enlightened. May the fear of The Eternal One cleanse you. May you aquire treasure in Heaven and may the sweetness of Heaven open up to you. May you be rewarded and blessed exceedingly.

In the name that is above all names,

B'shem Yeshua HaMashiach,

Reuel