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Post by mystic on Jun 26, 2021 4:25:51 GMT -8
I always tell everyone I don't see how I can ever become a Holy man. I say this for a few reasons. First and foremost I am ADD [Attention Deficit Disorder] so my mind runs a million miles an hour with one thought after another each lasting only a few seconds and a lot of the times one negative thought or another will enter my mind.
Also, music and electronics have always been two of my main passions since early childhood which would explain why I ended up being a Computer Tech so my focus for the most part of the day is on Technology.
I have been praying for years now asking the Holy Spirit to block out the daily negative thoughts but it never worked. So what I purposely started doing for the last couple of years now is to immediately switch focus to something technology or music related. This has now become an automatic defense mechanism to lessen the constant barrage of negative thoughts and it does work for the most part. So, question is, can I ever become a Holy man while having to concentrate on worldly things to prevent the negative thoughts? Please note that this is only when I am not working so when I am idle or lying down doing nothing which is especially painstaking on Sabbath.
One Jewish guy I know who is a networking technician, when asked about what he does on Sabbath to occupy his time he said he doesn't even own a TV which totally shocked me noting his profession. One Musician told me he gave up playing in a band to walk right with God. A DJ told me he gave up DJ-ing and now only plays and listens to Gospel music. Can these men be considered Holy men assuming they obey all the other scriptures?
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Post by alon on Jun 26, 2021 6:19:36 GMT -8
I always tell everyone I don't see how I can ever become a Holy man. I say this for a few reasons. First and foremost I am ADD [Attention Deficit Disorder] so my mind runs a million miles an hour with one thought after another each lasting only a few seconds and a lot of the times one negative thought or another will enter my mind. Also, music and electronics have always been two of my main passions since early childhood which would explain why I ended up being a Computer Tech so my focus for the most part of the day is on Technology. I have been praying for years now asking the Holy Spirit to block out the daily negative thoughts but it never worked. So what I purposely started doing for the last couple of years now is to immediately switch focus to something technology or music related. This has now become an automatic defense mechanism to lessen the constant barrage of negative thoughts and it does work for the most part. So, question is, can I ever become a Holy man while having to concentrate on worldly things to prevent the negative thoughts? Please note that this is only when I am not working so when I am idle or lying down doing nothing which is especially painstaking on Sabbath. One Jewish guy I know who is a networking technician, when asked about what he does on Sabbath to occupy his time he said he doesn't even own a TV which totally shocked me noting his profession. One Musician told me he gave up playing in a band to walk right with God. A DJ told me he gave up DJ-ing and now only plays and listens to Gospel music. Can these men be considered Holy men assuming they obey all the other scriptures?
You do have some fairly unique challenges. So don't be too hard on yourself. Thoughts pop into all our heads from time to time, though maybe not as often as you experience. The thing is not to entertain them. If we immediately shut the thought down, there is no problem. I still apologize and ask His help overcoming, mostly because those thoughts are able to crop up because I trained them to for so long. But we are all human, and they sneak in regardless. It sounds as if you are dealing with them correctly.
And I don't know about everyone else, but I cannot remain focused on God 100% of the time either. I still work on projects, and they take my attention. As do other concerns. And sometimes I just need to chill out, go blank and relax. And with my age and meds my mind tends to wander, even when I am praying! So you are not alone in that. I can't know your problems or how it is for you. But I do know you keep trying in spite of what appears to be some serious challenges. That matters to God, which I believe is why the book of Job was included in scripture.
So hold onto your faith, and keep trying. Giving up is not an option for those of us who are set apart to HaShem; you included! |
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Post by mystic on Jun 26, 2021 7:14:26 GMT -8
The thing is not to entertain them. If we immediately shut the thought down, there is no problem. I still apologize and ask His help overcoming,
And I don't know about everyone else, but I cannot remain focused on God 100% of the time either. I still work on projects, and they take my attention. As do other concerns. And sometimes I just need to chill out, go blank and relax. And with my age and meds my mind tends to wander, even when I am praying!
So hold onto your faith, and keep trying. Giving up is not an option for those of us who are set apart to HaShem; you included! That is comforting thanks! I thought I was alone in this but see now that you go through some of the same ordeals, it is extremely difficult which is why Sabbath is always a challenge for me to sit still and try to relax because that's mostly when the negative thoughts creep in. I knew what the word holy means, just that I had always thought someone who is all about God "all day long" would be considered holy. Those who wake up in the middle of the night to pray and those who do nothing else, have no worldly hobbies or interests e.t.c is what I thought would make a person Holy. |
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Post by alon on Jun 26, 2021 7:32:03 GMT -8
I knew what the word holy means, just that I had always thought someone who is all about God "all day long" would be considered holy. Those who wake up in the middle of the night to pray and those who do nothing else, have no worldly hobbies or interests e.t.c is what I thought would make a person Holy. |
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